Dear Little Hailey
This is a letter I wrote to my younger self.
March, 2021.
Dear Little Hailey,
You are so loved. I love you.
Please learn how to love yourself. Each day will be different, and the moments within them too. Know that all of you is welcome. Not to anyone but you. Allow yourself to welcome all of you.
Please allow all of you, all of your parts, your feelings, your questions they are welcome.
There is enough space for you.
You have enough space for you within the walls of your sacred vessel. Your body, the blood, the organs and veins that allow you to be reading this right now is a miracle.
You are a miracle.
And you are alive.
You don’t have to do anything to make up for the gift of being alive.
Receive the gift of being alive as you and allow yourself to come alive. You being alive is the best gift you could ever give.
Being alive as you means feeling, and wondering, and thinking, and advocating, and asking.
Be all of her.
Not for anyone.
But yourself.
Everyone came here---everyone got the gift of being alive as them.
DO NOT give your gift away by trying to hold or make space for anyone else’s life.
You will find you will be of service.
Service to love.
Service to all beings.
But first, please listen to yourself.
What your tummy says.
She knows.
When your mind doesn't know,
she does.
She always does and she always will.
It’s okay to feel scared.
I want you to know you will always have yourself.
So learn what you love.
Learn to listen to Hailey.
Other people might be louder but remember they all have themselves.
And only you have you.
Everyday learn how to love on yourself.
Some days it will be the same, others different.
But you will be listening.
Just like the weather changes and winter turns to spring, you will also experience seasons.
Please be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to transition.
Watch the trees.
They don't come back in one day.
Gift yourself grace + wonder.
It's okay not to know. Life is a mystery.
Allow yourself to be a mystery to others.
You know who you are.
You are reading this now.
Your relationship with yourself is the most important relationship you will ever experience.
Just because she’ll always be here.
Don’t take her for granted.
Don’t put her last.
But actually, first.
Listen to Hailey first.
Listen to your body.
Listen.
Listen.
Listen.
You are a super listener it is you power.
Work everyday listening inside so one day you can help others listen.
You are not here to feel others pain as your own.
But you will be amazingly helpful and help many people alleviate pain + suffering.
But not by you eating it or feeling it for them.
Its okay to feel alone. You always have me.
I love you. You are doing great.
You are exactly
where you are
meant to be.
There are no mistakes.
You are safe.
You are loved. so loved.